exJa

that was pretty busy just now.

woke up and went school for awhile just to finish up some unfinished business, on a Saturday?!

rushed home and went to meet nicole for a short outing.

swear to god, she really got all that comical expressions.

and yes i checked it out after shower just to find out if nicole was exaggerating. due to connections, all i can say is, unique and individuality were the shit that came to my mind.

chilled out at wheelock's starfucks, its been common on Saturday nights.

picked up reading of books recently, like really reading. i mean, its an On and Off shit for me but now its becoming more and more addictive.

should it ever

3 years, it became fruitless on wednesday.

oh man,

JUST BLOW MY MIND AWAY THIS INSTANCE.

"boomz!"

to the above paragraphs:

seriously, what am i writing?!

just simply,

life is to be filled with surprises.

SO WHY STOP IT FROM HAPPENING?

predict not;

happen, it shall be.

i don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight

Your lipstick stains

On the front lobe of my

Left-side brains

I knew I wouldn't forget you

And so I went and let you

Blow my mind

Your sweet moving

The smell of you in every

Single dream I dream

I knew when we collided

You're the one I have decided

Who's one of my kind

oh shit

stop, not any closer.

when long isn't as sweet as short.

one can control who to like and who to love,

yet infatuations are beyond one's grasp.

this was one that we can't tell anyone, not even anyone close except us.

this was indeed, against rules.

we happened one year ago, she and i.

where those short moments felt like light year.

we loved,

and parted.

"for our own good", as we tried to convince one another.

there is no meaning behind this post,

i just wanted to look back and smile at it.

this was one

hidden chapter of my life.

the numbnuts challenge

and so, we really set foot in the sunset grill & pub for the HOTWING challenge.

the highest level got sold out, so we just wack level 30.

this is how that level30 shit looks like!

sure it's nothing if you just had a few bites, but fcuk.

your tongue will burn after that!

one wing and i cried like bitch there.

3 wings and you will know, one wing is nothing.

like some bloody phobia after i finished the plate.

SO WE FINALLY DID IT!!!

FEELS LIKE AN ACHIEVEMENT MAN.

still looking cool in the pictures eh?

the aftermath?

i puked 3 times, nearly FAINT. I SWEAR MAN. HAAHHA NB

was literally crawling on the road side if anyone was there to see. even the bloody vomits can burn my eyes. KNN EXCRUCIATING SHIT!

but, DAMN SONG.

WORTH IT.

CONCLUSION?

NO MORE HOTWINGS

HUM LIAO

location: Seletar East camp airbase

follow the "Sunset" signboard along the road.

great place to chill out.

Lose yourself

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, sunset grill's hot wings
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready

Look, if you had, one shot, or one opportunity

To seize everything you ever wanted - one moment

Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?

revamped for a lil

OKAY, IF YOUR EYES AINT BLIND THEN YOU SHOULD SEE SOME CHANGES I MADE TO THIS SITE. LIKE FINALLY ! QUITE CHIO, I LIKE.

if any of the pictures are not to your liking, just let me know. i'll change to something prettier for you.

p.s. i stole the pictures from all ya' facebook profile.

i asked the guys to try this: HOT WINGS CHALLENGE

and YES, we're heading down in the afternoon! THIS IS FOR REAL MAN! HAHAHA

LIKE LATER MAN. from the video, if you still can't believe that shit is hot like one mothaf' then wait for my review on it tomorrow.. thats if my ass is not sticking to the toilet bowl on sunday.

LEVEL 35 HOT WINGS HERE I COME!!!

remember when i caught your eyes

im so tired, need to take a quick and short nap soon!

damn happening at zouk tonight, shall write bout it when i got time.

amen.

and so it is, just like you say it would be

This pair of shit caught my eyes at peninsula when i was shopping around there, all by my f'ing self. was looking at all the boots though, nothing special. the bloody laces behind is damn CHIO (reminds me of visvim), i wonder why this isnt hype at all! nonetheless, im still getting it within this month. just wack only!

brown shoes are versatile for any jeans, ANY.

Starfucks muggin' session was pretty well-spent earlier on. i know you dont give a shit, but my report is done and i sketched some random clothings. if i go crazy enough, ill just bomb myself a mannikin in my room. quite inspired to do my own clothings, i cant believe i actually have this mentality. well, all for the fun of it!

i write a lil' too much

its words after words.

damn, i really wrote a lot of shit.

i mean, just LOOK at that amount. F

i think this place screw up what some people think of me as,

my life and every shit i ever wrote. is that a good thing, or bad?

i mean, people do judge one through media and all possible connections right. well, i didnt beg anyone of you to like me though. so lets just stick to what your mind is telling ya, cool yeah.

i spent some time thinking.

okay fine, dreaming.

even though i hate those wannabes taking dsl cam loitering around town, im still getting it in mid april. i have an addiction for randomly taking snapshots, its real fun. or maybe the kind of idiots who solo weird places and tries to make some artistic shots out of nowhere. god, i cant wait for that!

till then endure all the words coming from me, since it might be a purely picture blog within 2-3 months.

STARFUCKS, HERE I COME.

ain't that mister mister

THANKS FOR THE LAUGHTERS MAN.

YA' KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

HEYY HEYHEYHEYHEYYY~

oh fuck the coughing now.

MGMT is cool man. love it

a little bit cavalier

just to have some reality checks, i have like exactly 1 month of studies.

like a flash man, F.

i need to find accomplice to suffer with me at starbucks,

then i'll try to enjoy coffee like some savvy asses.

HAHAHA

okay, tomorrow shall execute it and all the fcuking way till feb.

so i went cityhall to hunt for my pants,

couldnt get find a decent one for me to do my shit on it. saw a super chio new balance boots though, holy grail to the max!

bad was enough bad

Good Lord,

i owe no one a living after Feb 10.

not my family, friends nor any random babes on the streets.

Independency, we called that.

yes no doubt, emotions are messing around up there.

One should never swear for another, but beautifully enough for me to.

ridiculously merciless it might sound,

to think this time i succumbed to Fate, not by choices nor was it chances.

God damn it, i hate losing in such unbearable method.

such a pity, but i cant wallow any further.

nothings for sure, right. gonna move my candy ass somehow.

sure it was as good as it lasted.

a short glimpse of frank infatuation, insane like and vague love.

i actually laughed at myself over this, mothaf.

how true are we to our feelings?

im just glad that till now, im still sticking to it.

"Remember when

I caught your eye

You gave me rainbows and butterflies

We did enjoy a happiness

When our love was over

I was such a mess"

HAHAHAHAH

Ha.

ill quit smoking first then cut down on clubs,

but the dicks are going this wednesday.

and its my turn to chill out at zouk this time.

i dont think anyone would believe that i hate the acts in clubs, because i took part in it somehow.

oh well, thats why this blog existed.

beat to the beats

i wasnt leading her on,

but her kiss was unnecessary.

im being really careless nowadays, f.

okay, its gonna be over somehow.

this place is free for all, no privacy or what not.

what will come, will come!

NO FRET.

sorethroat and flu is the worst mixture ever.

theres an age limit in chasing a babe, be it younger or older.

talked bout it in a cab during the ride back last night.

there will never be age limit for me, not now! HAHAH

sick.

gracious 5:16am

what's the good in "Goodbye"?

to sound better and make yourself look even better.

bad romance

i cant be sure if im doing exactly the right shit.

with those mixed thoughts,

i have totally no idea whats a like, love, lust and infatuation at this instant. to think i actually spend years to discover all that, yet lost like a direction nerd in my third dimension.

vague, so vague.

this is not being emotional, this is writing whats going on up there.

the bigger picture would be writing, "to be continued"

forgive me for my sins,

HA.

good lord i should just stop.

kamikaze

true enough, i ran out of ideas.

i dont know whats luring me,

nor do i know whats stopping me.

i should be unstoppable, or should i say i do not wish to be stopped.

i ought to love this,

should have been quite awhile.

when shit happen to yourself,

you really get all messed up.

well, SHIT HAPPENS!

it can be so boring

ive been staring at the screen, wondering what to write.

nothing comes through.

beating my head against the pillow,

mixture of thoughts lying up there.

i needed some confusions,

after being clear headed for too long.

do we make one special even though deep down we know that they aint?

then if they really are special, we start to doubt our feelings.

we start to doubt our beliefs,

our solutions.

that might be when we start losing faith in ourselves.

wait a minute, miss.

i only write shit when theres work stress, extremely.

when we think too much into it,

questions somehow mislead us into thinking another,

even delusions becomes reality.

and when you know too much,

people tend to think that youre stronger mentally,

which make you sadder than ever.

because feelings are no longer genuine,

its no longer the first-hand response.

the best outcome was never the ones you had it planned.

HA.

haha.

ran out of ink

i thought of a lame story line, here goes nothing.

we came to a store, selling

5 bucks per cig

it's,

a cig that GLOWS! "ohmyf'ing"

then we,

found a Paradise that reads,

finally,

you see me there.

tell me it's really exciting, this story!

this was from my blog as i was browsing my own facebook profile.

wonder what was i thinking back then.

title: How we used to lie bout' Love

many a times,
when being questioned bout it,
our answers hardly tally to our hearts.

when voicing out whats in our mind,
just makes us look so utterly weak and dumb.
when even answering,
somehow we will try to pull one back for ourselves.
when facing them,
we tried to laugh it off like they never matter in the first place.
when writing an entry,
we tried to sound as neutral as possible.

little did we know,
unconsciously,
while thinking bout it,
they accidentally left a smile in our shadows.

addict the addiction

quotes & philosophies,

out.

crucify my love

im sorry for doing the norm, but i had dinner twice.

flaws.

who doesnt have that?

sucks to know that some of my friends are still wallowing at that. we all have that, even such egoistic fella like me has it! so, instead of thinking bout it day in day out, we confront ourselves.

we cant escape vulnerability, just face it. either you cover it up or deal with it.

not muscular enough, dark dry hair. even chasing the wrong girl seemed like a flaw to the onlookers.

tell me bout it! LOL

we need to see ourselves perfect before others could, not very easy though; nothing is easy.

anyhow, i just hope that my friends could deal it off quickly. i know it doesnt feel real good to be slammed with reality checks. guess we really force the shit out of him, pure confessions. sadistic enough, i enjoyed every moment of that.

i was set into real thinking mode before i left the house to meet nicole regarding an earlier conversation,

something like "How is one going to fall deeply in love when knowing that somehow somewhere you gonna end the relationship?"

yeah how?

my mind went blank for some moments.

all i can think of, was that its not gonna be easy if you have been through lots in your pursue for love.

we're no longer naive or innocent, our bars are set higher.

we will expect more now, the finish line is further than ever.

Love

we tried to leave it blank but i guess we already knew the answers from within.

a 10minutes entry

ah fuck.

im sleeping like at 6am recently, totally screw up my body clock.

not forgetting that sch is starting soon.

right, im trying not to give a shit now.

even though writing it out would mean that im actually giving a shit but well, i just want to make myself feel better.

WHO DOESNT?

i cant be indifferent on that, is just some standard procedures. damn it.

every thing just moves, we cant stop the inevitable.

but we can change the ending, thats for sure.

against all odds

thanks for loving this shit, but i wrote it for fun on the previous post.

fyp is ending in 4weeks and i have done like 20%? amen.

pretty lost but the light is somewhere, and time is limited.

there seems to be a million reasons that i should go for you,

all i needed was one 'but' to stop all operations.

i cant do it to such a cutie pie like you.

for the very first time

it wasn't easy holding your hands,

looking at you in the eyes

and telling you the three words.

i would have break into laughter.

love needed some seriousness and funny elements, like you and I.

should have told you that

im doing that for the first time,

although its a white lie but

if it makes this bond between us

a memorable one for you,

i would.

could have make promises despite

knowing that you would believe

at that moment,

but i didn't.

we've love enough to

know that nothing last,

so i wouldn't give you

a chance to regret.

should have told you

it was love at first sight,

that would make you go crazy

so i saved it for the latter.

love,

till profanities do us part.

nearly tripped

dont ask me about resolution, its always the same.

To be a better man.

might sound cliche, but if youre one of the very bastard kind before, it will mean a lot to me. i dont need reality check on that, its reality.

finally, i had rested enough for two years. been escaping the issue of getting attached all these time, or should i say not even touching it. well, it doesnt mean that im in some killing spree mode. i like it natural, out of the norm. at least i will make it surprising. commitment, i cant promise that sort of crap but i will watch my movements. damn, cant help but to feel like a baby going into love. i am engulfed by stupid thoughts and foolishness.

i told my mom bout the age thingy, that she shouldnt be surprised if i ever bring someone older by 5-8years. i think i must be kidding. LOL oh well, this is ground zero now!

to some of my friends,

if its yours, its yours.

you can fight for it aimlessly, hopelessly.

if hes not worth the fight, get it done with.

theres nothing about, "He/Shes the only one."

how many times have we fooled ourselves into that before?

many times, but they still left and youre still alive and kicking.

all the best!

i was about to say FML, but i guess its too early for this year.

its a start, for fresh blood.

HAAHAHA ROCK ON.