it can be so boring

ive been staring at the screen, wondering what to write.

nothing comes through.

beating my head against the pillow,

mixture of thoughts lying up there.

i needed some confusions,

after being clear headed for too long.

do we make one special even though deep down we know that they aint?

then if they really are special, we start to doubt our feelings.

we start to doubt our beliefs,

our solutions.

that might be when we start losing faith in ourselves.