tell me why i shouldn't laugh at my below entry?

OKAY, a bit ki siao today.

buying and reselling is quite fun man.

this lady, keeps making me fall back in over and over again.

im getting used to her silliness,

her smiles,

her scent,

her voices

and her every reactions.

oh you make me happy, so very happy, once again.

puzzle bubble

what is happening?

i have been dreaming bout love and murder for the past 2weeks,

it seemed so real.

might be the thinking before sleep session or perhaps the new book im reading, either way it gives me inspirations somehow.

to think i actually came to a conclusion that i couldn't stand a chance in the long run.

i know i am really against the idea of being demoralized before the result, but god man, i havent reach immortal level yet.

did my observant skill failed me?

or has it always been that?

perhaps im procrastinating.

its sort of a Good&Bad thing if you have an idea of how i am feeling now,

you lost your usual way of being certain about almost everything,

every certainties turns hazy,

temporary satisfaction

and simply, you don't feel like yourself anymore.

someday, chocolates might be my favorite kind of shit.

perhaps the bottom line is to learn to give and yet not receive what you put in.

perhaps.

"you had me at hello."

housechore

been wanting to ask this,

why is my toilet bowl water in blue?!

HAHAHA HOW THE F THEY DO IT 1?!

every time i flush also in blue!

so COOL.

i know what you want to say, kp!

now it gets boring,

within expectations.

tell me bout cliche and mundane,

this is what it's all about.

damn, spice is gone.

i want to catch a movie soon

or laze on the bed watching dvd.

wouldn't it be great.

me & u - cassie

can someone question me?

like what am i doing,

what shit do i want from it

or what am i even going to do next.

even the most inane question, i might probably answer.

perhaps ask me why am i doing so much, why?

i used to have a definite answer for that, does it mean that i had a change of direction?

we always want to know what the other party is thinking, don't we?

and to do that, you feel that being frank first will actually start the ball rolling.

sometimes being frank will make the situation more unstable,

sometimes you end up being in a more sticky scenario.

see, you just can't be frank in the long run.

i am tired, give me a pill.

yeah, i am.

you should be the one going hell, not us.

im not emotional,

or at least i dont call this being that.

you read my previous entries, i'll be writing emotional stuff but i am laughing behind the screen.

i hate it when people judge on the surface which they always do.

i just felt angry, maybe i didn't know what to do.

just sit there at the corner,

not picking up calls or replying messages.

i need to digest this blow and i prayed.

i don't call this a prayer tho, i scolded whoever was on top.

i didn't tear, she wouldn't want me to.

she was a strong girl, she was weak on the inside.

she just a lil like me, thats why we could click that well.

i knew her in my chec days.

why do i have to lose 2 close friends when im just in my twenties?

5 years back, you took my classmate away.

this morning, you took another one.

i know i sounded insane here, just let me be.

you know i hate it when people just come and try to console me like they know how you are feeling.

don't even try, i appreciate it. thanks

beloved joyce

pardon me, i just couldn't take that blow.

God,

why did you take her away when she was just so young?

imissyoujoyce.

close your eyes, what's the first thing that comes into your mind?

that was one fucking reason why i couldn't be that type of fella,

no matter how many tries i go,

that fucking reason for fuck's sake.

this is random,

i felt random.

so in the midst of the conversation i asked chloe,

use one word to describe me at the moment.

i got the word, "promiscuous."

i hit the clubs with her for a few times, so it should be reasonable for her to think that way.

i thought so.

then again, the word seems to have a deeper meaning that what i thought.

so, i googled it out.

it's not mass flirting which i thought it was, it actually was casual sexual relationships.

you know, like one night stand?

yeah, i wasn't or at least not into that area.

that kind of made me realized that what if half of my friends might be using the same word to describe me, just like chloe.

god,

i am screwed.

sometimes you wake up having the foul mood,

then you ask yourself that was something you have no control over

and you went on feeling more fuck up.

i stopped,

rest my head on the table

and started smiling from beneath.

She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before

Nothing you can compare to your neighborhood girl

I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful

The way that booty movin' I can't take no more

Have to stop what i'm doin so I can pull her close

I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful

Damn girl
Damn you'se a sexy chick

abruptly, nothing surprises me anymore.

i am really amazed by my level of stupidity tonight.

hello back!

i need to write something constructive soon, its too dull here.

i shall spam pictures soon.

i can write a whole lot of shit here,

i was so close to being insane.

thank god

im trying to be savvy but still,

BO JIO!

the idea of being really really nice, it's never gonna work.

rubbish

fulfilling 30mins of rushed dinner, nice.

great world ain't that difficult to go after all. HA

we fight and quarrel,

but end up kissing before 12 midnight.

how long have we last done this?

it's not to my recollection that i ever took neoprints with a female,

it's too child-like or much of a fantasy for secondary students i must say.

but for the fun of it, i had it with lynn one fine day.

i am really laughing hard at those neoprints, i mean we're definitely too old for that!

then again, "it's never too old to be young."

apart from that, she looked so funny there.

well, we both looked retarded. HAHAHA

dear elis is flying off in june :(

this is some kind of drama is it?

damn, hell with the endings i guess.

"i've waited all my life

to cross this line

to the only thing that's true

so i will not hide

anything to be with you"

holy shit, i can't resist lovely love songs!

this night, was dark.

hope the card did some magic to you.

and so, we've been doing that behind each other's back.

should have told me earlier, should have.

HA, "whatever" i guess?

you know.

i kept asking myself what are we doing?

i can never figure out that question and even the purpose of me asking it.

well well, it all comes down to this.

it ain't easy chasing her,

not at all.

and great, i won $$$ in mj earlier on!

sudden urge so i'm gonna do this all night. HAHAHA

ladyluck might want to accompany me through the night.

get well, soon

did something absurd yet cutesy today.

it will create an uproar if i ever do post it online.

yes

you could be my kate moss tonight

this is lovely.

yes, and all i could do was spam my phone.

such nights are suppose to be normal, every time.

im just not ready for all that shit.

yeah dumb fuck.

with this little amount of strength,

you have to go against the world,

against morality.

what would you do?

yes, answer me.

i have no interest to go thailand all of a sudden.

so i think ill research on some bali or dunno what island for some exotic feel.

okay 1-2days gate away!

i think staying at resort and play mj would be a nice idea, god knows who will be that steady man.

all you have to do is to ask.

(click)

So I'm saving all my love

Yeah I'm saving all my lovin

Yes I'm saving all my love for you

For you, for you

i am me, no one else.

now f myself

go f yourself.

i hope im really nice.

the jackneo press conference had an epic ending.

okay, one created the mess so there's no need to shed tears over it.

does "a moment of folly" really exist?

i mean we know what's installed for us if we do the stuff that we're not supposed to right.

its funny how we deliberately do the wrong things and end up spending twice the amount of effort to put things back on track.

yeah, everyone make mistakes.

then all the more we should forgive,

and giving us yet another reason to repeat the cycle.

a few stolen moments.

i'm revolving too much around you,

and it's bad.

time to contradict.

"i am scared of virtual ghosts."

tell me how amusing can you ever get? :D

first or last

what do you want from this life of yours?

something fulfilling,

something big bucks,

something famous,

something that everyone is doing.

i just want it happening, nothing else.

wealth is not my priority, i can't say it's unimportant but it's just not on the top list.

oh well, that is the Alvin i know since young.

i like the shoppers at haji lane.

life philosophy,

"不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。"

can you achieve it?

i wouldn't dare

chill,

smile.

don't brood about it anymore.

simple as that?

how long can one resist the desire for another?

one night in taipei

okay, photo fest.

Ay chung mee sua, delicious ttm!

longgggg sausages above

couple tower

suck and more sucking

boring

台北101

"healthy" supper before club

room18!

i chanced upon this during my night walk

just visit the facebook if you crave for more.

okay, gonna meet nicole soon for dinner!

managed to catch up with elis bout her A level result, oh well she did okay

but just couldnt get the course she wanted so shes gonna elope soon i guess.

i sensed some kind of l4d addiction from the guys. amen

now i know how it feels to go hell for love.

alright,

i got an urge to just catch any movie and have a lil nap inside.

sounds good? definitely to me :D

back to pigeon love letter days

what's all these?

writing a letter at this hour, f'ing kidding me?!

emails and letters?! oh f, what am i becoming?

it wasn't funny when i went in my sent box and had a good look at em,

it was more of "Wow, that was really me."

i totally have no idea if those gifts are really to your liking but f, i actually spent hours looking for "not-for-myself" items.

relax, i dont need recognition for all those shits i did. im not that sort of fella, i just hope that its to the person's liking or at least its useful to any of my friends pleaseeee. HAHA

maybe i might be buying stamps soon.

GOD SAVE ME. HAHAHA

just let me enjoy these lil shit can :D

now, what's next?

i'm used to being the really Bad one :D

don't question me on that please.

will write bout my trip when im back meeting the guys.