lastly

Ever had an unreachable target?
Someone or something that you thought you were so closed into getting it but ends up feeling so far away.
I had one,
big time.
I thought I was decently good enough if I maintained my pace.
But shit aint so easy, I found out I was pretty far behind.
Its as though there wasn't any confidence to begin with, I felt inferior.
And boy, I realized this is the pressure of growing up.
You start to feel and compare,
You start to get worried and lost the balance.

I probably just gave her up to let the better ones cut the queue.
I actually did that.
So now I wanted the space,
I needed the time for myself.
Time to actually work hard for the future and for myself.
R/s probably aint bout the game anymore,
Nor the ilu or imu.
Responsibilities.
So spare me.
I'm not getting into one, not even a short coaster ride.

I will start running,
till the day you're engaged.

Merry christmas.