end of chapter 2

I have no idea what stopped me. I was triggered, I was gonna smash her to bits.
Why did it stop me?

I've been living way past the limit bar and controlling it, so tell me about losing control.

I do know I'm weird, or usually ends up doing differently. I tried to be like every other normal guys - feeling jealous, trying to take control and making the woman the priority etc. I tried to be nice, out of my context. I'm not me trying to be Me. When you get bitten once, you grow smarter, you question yourself even more.

Changed? I can't judge. But when being nice doesn't seems to be an obligation anymore, I questioned myself how to make it convincing that I am, being Me.

Perhaps I do know what went wrong this time. I don't wish to explain bout the ugly tweets but hell, only the good ones were for her. Perhaps I'm wrong, I'll never know anyway. I'm tired of explaining or, trying too hard for a love one.

I'm a freaking perfect example of an aquarius male. Freedom speaks for everything we do, I hated myself so bloody much if I ever took it away from anyone. Don't tell me I'm controlling anybody, don't even think about it.

I'm lending her the axe. I have no clues bout good byes, nor composing it. I'm not feeling any atm, neither am I feeling good. shall end it here, too much will make it look like I'm acting.

Be fine, be okay.
kthxbyegdnight alvin/You.

Who would have known that I actually have a good reason to change my game name? No, she probably wouldn't believe I wanted it to be 25. Even jason would think im crazy. I'm that ignorant and that "idc" to everybody. And I do, she wouldn't even believe. Acting much alvin.

I do, and I can't find a single way to make it look real.
Screw yourself then, alvin.