been there, never gonna done it

okay

how do i start?

feels like im reading a love story now.

this would be the best talk ever, yup it is.

not the usual messages stuff,

a cosy yet emotional confessions facing your impeccable appearance.

the gaps between our age and maturity affects us.

if its just for the moments, i could live with it and go all the way out for you.

mainly because you're too nice.

too fucking nice to me,

you deserve better.

look, i cant run away from that anymore.

sooner or later, it will daunt on me.

marriage.

how bout five years down the road, you will be at the marriage age but i wont be.

im so against it, i wouldnt want to do it even at my 30s.

i shouldnt hinder you,

shouldnt waste your time.

i have no idea how i managed that, just did it somehow.

thought i could handle it, everything.

im glad that such thoughts fucked me before bed time for these few nights.

i guess its my turn to pass this around,

"we won't be the same like before, not anymore."

jesus christ,

did i just had two roller coaster rides?

now how the fuck do i adjust my feelings now?

did i grow up

or am i just afraid?

i need to catch my breathe, now.

no one would know this until now.

we're good,

good friends,

but never lovers.

-amour