here we go.

this is personal,

the habit of laying down my head on the table

while listening to music.

thats how it flows for myself.

its a bad habit to listen to love/sad songs

with a broken heart, i admit it.

but it kind of works differently for me,

more towards the good o' times.

no doubt bout it, after all the recollections you will feel insanely down because its just such a pity that you can't have now.

not tomorrow, or even the day after.

in the midst of it,

maybe you will feel silly

maybe you will ask yourself why you did certain things you did

maybe you will start to miss him/her a lot

maybe you start to tear

then it comes flooding

but don't stop

it's all worth it.

ha, now im affected by what im writing. jesus.

you might even realize that,

sad songs are extremely beautiful.

yes it is.

now im smiling and laughing,

i ought to be upset isnt it?

kind of funny isnt it.

realizing how special you made someone to be

only at the last few moments.

the stars are holding you,

holding you,

holding you

tonight

tonight