fuck, this is some kind of stress or what.

i nearly teared while typing that text down. HAHAHA F.

shit man, fuck.

i can't believe myself.

taiwan here i come!

good luck everybody and God bless

i can't. count me out of this, right now.

i wonder if it will get any harder than this.

it took me ages to turn it into ice,

now im trying my best to melt it.

don't worry, alvin has his fair share of being stupid too.

from paris to lover is an awesome movie, god i love jonathan meyers man. while waiting for a nerd, i tried out a korean food place just directly opposite Amara hotel. f, its filled with koreans! the kimchi shit there is fucking nice. Koko rooloo is the name.

so i was dragged to velvet while trying to send nerd home, nothing much happened until the part where venessa cramped her legs just outside zouk for no good reason but the conversation was damn damn damn hilarious which i forgot.

yes, im flying off to tw on sunday.

no, im not going to visit those bloody historical shit with my parents so im heading off by myself during this trip.

exciting!

i saw how twitter works okay. something like @Vicky go and die! right?

i'm travelling around SG for that bloody shit, C better love me for that!

fuck you V, for smoking in my room just now! everything smells of cig now!

wow, thanks for the shot.

-kissing a fool 2:46

But remember this

Every other kiss

That you'll ever give

Long as we both live

When you need the hand of another man

One you really can surrender with

I will wait for you

Like I always do

There's something there

That can't compare with any other

why am i laughing at this part? this part is damn shiok can.

hear for yourself on top

now i'm addicted to michael buble songs.

You don't know me.

lapsap dance don't turn me on.

i suddenly woke up.

how dumb can one be?

actually, what am I doing?

what do you think?

the pillow is happy.

what's next in this chapter?

what a long day ahead.

i write because i have a blog.

i love because i have a heart.

i fuck because i have a penis.

i kiss because i have a mouth.

sounds weird? i will edit it after i'm done revising.

i am suppose to be good at it,

i am laughing in disbelief.

im half way there in mugging, yet im "twittering" in this shit place.

this is cute.

i'm questioning myself for some reasons,

i'm smiling for reasons,

i'm not paying attention for some reasons,

i'm neither here nor there for some reasons

but i'm mugging now for one fucking reason.

if someone is better than you, knows more than you in your field

then you let go of all your beliefs and be yourself.

i might be like, water after all.

versatility is part of me.

she made me looked like an idiot going in circles.

great, now i enjoy writing every few mins or so.

drinking coke and reading.

does this look like i'm doing some twitter shit?

okay i'm being summoned on wednesday for xp birthday at zouk.

bo buey zao

slap me for being straight forward.

keep bleeding

WALAN EH, 400 BUCKS VANISHED INTO THE THIN AIR.

SUAY TO THE MAX!

reality tv

had a roller coaster ride at zouk last night.

it was awkward yet thrilling.

it was another type of social networking, a different level one.

man, we sure looked like bodyguards or little brothers following the ladies as they pay respect through liquors and champagnes. i had this experience in bangkok, where the older generations poured for the younger ones and now im getting it the Singaporean way.

a different level of night life, not something that i desired.

neither did i detest it but i needed some time to digest this whole shit.

i dont mean its a bad experience man, just imagine a child being dumped in a jungle. yeah thats how i felt, the thrill and what lies ahead shit.

too refreshing and sudden for me.

she was gorgeous,

it feels like the bodyguard falling in love with the princess.

forbidden was the word.

there goes my virgin

come to think of it, i have never in this life lost to 3 parties before.

LET ALONE THREE GIRLS!

WTH SONG TTM.

I THINK IM COMPLACENT, tats what elis told me.

MUST BE LUCK, and luck only happens once in a Moon!

FFFFFFFF

Jackpot !

and, yet i lost another 70 bucks over mahjong.

a concert ticket for jams.

SHUANGGGGG!

when i recall how much i lost during this cny,

"OUCH!" was the reaction.

nothing matters now.

pretty sick image but its hard flashing my eyes with flash lights from the cam. tmd

reality calls for a dsl camera once again or

perhaps its just my photographing skill?

eyes that speak,

eyes that kill.

(i dont mean mine)

forget bout your figure, face, boobs or skin color.

its your eyes thats so captivating,

indulge me with it.

what's next

i was trying to type something, then i realized that this place isnt safe anymore!

well, thats the thrill of it somehow.

will blog bout the past few days soon, just being lazy here.

i just lost 300 bucks.

BE WITH YOU

(click here)

another step, another milestone

(few days back..)

mugged in school, hang out with adeline and friends around bugis area.

im done reading one of the book, the last chapter is the crucial one. it wasnt a solution but it helped in every little ways when guys are trying to commit themselves into a relationship or perhaps our leap of faith. in case youre wondering, its something like"Can you settle down and still desire for others?"

so, the question on the coffee table today was,

"Do you need status?"

get me a second, i need some music to get inspirations from; to turn me on.

today will be this.

by no means do i mean ranks or position status, but rather status in a relationship.

girls needed that, but guys?

my answer was a straight No, i dont need it. (a vague no, perhaps)

guys are dominant creatures, so are girls. we all needed something to feel belonged to, a status.

so why didn't i agree to it earlier on?

status would meant being tied down, status would meant 24/7 unconditional love and concern and the list goes on. god, all these shit are suffice enough for a no.

give me a break honey; too much sugar will cause diabetes.

im not trying to be the minority, i might be the minority.

(present.)

yes i know i wrote half way, its like starting a chase and disappear nowhere later on.

i totally forgot what i wanted to write days back, yes stm it is.

so here i am, annual event is coming again.

twenty-two soon huh.

i would want something to change, another year older, another +1.

birthdays are suppose to have a better meaning, instead of just celebrating cradle birth.

its not bout cakes and gifts, its bout You, Me.

we should improve, evolve spiritually.

think about it, eventful for that very day and aimless for the rest? oh sucks.

Reflect,

take a look at the rear mirror.

Love is a velvet prison

your emotions are now my burden.

Now, get off me.

I do read, hard to tell huh

right.

another sarcastic fella out in the open.

i had a bookworm killing spree in Kinokuniya few days back;

neil gaiman & neil strauss.

yeah this cover caught my eyes from afar, like "THIS IS IT!" LOL

fine, its another self enrichment book after a friend made fun of me reading such genre but i swear i really love this type of shit. makes me smirk at certain points, kinky huh.

guess im better at decision making for clothing by myself.

im going brand-less this year for cny, cheap vintage stuff.

although i haven thought bout the top i might be getting,

lets take a step at a time shall we?

"The world is a stage,

and we are all players."

we can never stop dreaming

im into neil gaiman novelty once again.

hell yeah!