out with the tagboard.

last night was HIGH.

okay, enough.

sketch me your face

what the f.

whats all these sadness?!

im just eating chips and chilling out in front of the com and suddenly BOOM.

this heart gets heavy for no reason.

i havent been here for a long while, ive missed typing.

ive missed typing love letters/entries.

ive missed thinking about a girl for 18 hours daily except that 6hours of nap.

ive missed smiling stupidly to myself in front of the mirror.

ive missed the silly bickering moments.

what have i been missing out?

F

Fx2

Fx7

speak about stm, her images are fading.

when i close my fucking eyes, i cant even get a clear view of her face like before.

and of all times, bloody itunes' playing ti amo.

and ive missed the noises in the house.

im alone, not for long but im actually home alone.

theres no horrible mom's cooking where i'll go. "not again!?"

theres no more loud TV volume from my dad.

theres no more elder sis slamming the door when shes back from work like the whole world owes her one.

theres no more Alvin Lim closing the door for privacy.

but its okay, i will get over this shit soon.

i needed time by my own.

for no reasons, or yet that are found.

im fine, yes frankly speaking i am fine.

yeah, guys like us, we're hard on the surface.

inside's all jelly.

i probably know that all along, but some guys still want to save this little privilege for that somebody.

only that somebody will know or notice it.

im absolutely done for now,

gonna prepare for Chloe's birthday.

happy 21st.

I awfully like the smell of sourness.
It perks me up and turns on my engine.
Big time.

So come forget about the world,
Cause there's only you and me tonight.

i will ban myself if i write any shit today.

look

Went MBS last saturday, found out that I still could drink.
I really hate graveyard, its sick in the stomach.
Had fun with the homies, I think I was kissing guys instead of the models.
F IT. HAHAHA no, I'm straight you shithead.

truly, the shit still there.
Gonna contain it anyhow.
I'm addicted to BoA - I'm ok after playing audition,
SUPER CUTE LOR.
Happy Valentine's day,
14 feb.
Let me recollect what I was doing back then..

Umm,
I was aiming for hearts
And still am.

First of all,
Happy birthday Alvin.
23 is nothing young or old, yet I should treasure youth.
I'm sticking to doing un-norm stuff to spice up the life, cause we only lived once!
Shall write more when I'm home.

Man. What was I thinking about soloing club by myself?
HAHAHA
But then, I'm heading to a gay club this saturday with homies.
We wanna try hitting it to at least the kind of shit gays do in clubs.
SCARED YEAH.

Alright, hi esther.
If you're looking, that is. HAHA
Wait, I always told my friends I had great fun chatting with this girl here.
Her thoughts are just, wow.
Her reaction/replies are just, lmao at times.

So, we should clear up our mess previously for the better good of the future relationships I guess.
True enough, certain closures in chapters are needed.
What if this guilt bedridden us for a really long time?
What if pushing it aside works for some of us?
Yes yes, only we have the answers. Not your friends/family/me or even any Gods up there can drop you one.

I absolutely can't contain my smiles when Lynn dropped me her wishes.
Like F, I don't care if the conv didnt continue for nuts.
Yet I keep the gladness to myself. HAHAHA
How shitty.
Love all the wishes thou,
Hope to see peeps on sat.

I shall be less rude this time round.
Hey, I'm still trying okay!
(:
Enjoy 10th feb

cny period

so how's cny?

my luck's been pretty good and yes, i must be a player instead of dealer.

wait, that sounds wrong. "Player"

anyway, im on a fucking spree in mahjong. HAHAHA

im winning and winning.

Yes, any one should be afraid cause im on luck w/o lady luck.

i realized that losing 130 bucks in 3/6 mj rate is bloody noob.

how the hell did i lost 130bucks back then.

NEVER AGAIN.

TRY ME IF.. you dare. HAHAHA

im addicted to 3/6 now, i can handle that shit.

yeah, i sound so arrogant and i dont even care.

i lost like 90plus in blackjack but HENG, mj covers me back 100+ over.

damn heng.

or is it cause its february? :D

okay, i ignored all my schedules just to rot in front of the com watching movies.

"A moment to remember" kills me.

its so damn touching.

this was like the... 5th time i watched?

STILL FRESH.

sweet, too sweet.

back to work tml.

that's all.

that's all?

um.

Okay.
Okay.
Okay.

So beautiful.
So beautiful.
So ****ing beautiful.

Bye

cheryl's taking her own fucking sweet time to come over

and i just "ZA HU"ed.

ignore that, my winning streak still at 3 now.

HELL YEAH.

okay, HAPPY CNY EVERYBODY.

get more angbao then spend it on me on the 10th :D

truth

who knows one fine day I'll write/say this.

I'll be the bloody fool that love/miss you even if you're screwing around.
Hey, but who cares.
I'm being true to myself,
at the end of the day.
I will not give a shit bout onlookers, never will.
Girl,
I fucking miss the shit.


Well then, happy cny everybody.
Ester's going to butter and we're both not cleaning our room.
HAHAHA redundant.
I need mj, cause I will not lose this cny.
Not a match.

Hi.
You haven curse me today.
I needed it.

disasto

dead.

i broke the rule.

screw me.

thank you.

okay, town cant satisfy my fashion desire.

im screwed.

i really hope i can find em at some fking ulu place.

OKAY BED EARLY AGAIN.

maybe not so early, roam around the net first.

bye.