SLEEPY.
Don't tell me its another bad monday.
But its raining,
And I'm gonna miss someone.
I don't mind.

Good day

sweet o' sweet

love and other drug's just beautiful.

the rest always go,

"that's just alvin."

and then you,

you.

you didnt see me that way.

so unfortunately,

i need you.

heres the shit about liking a freelance model once,

is you get to see her awesome pretty face once in a while on facebook/magazines.

blame my naughty hand,

kept clicking next and next till

"BOOM"

my mind got fucked.

HOW THE FUCK I KNOW?

BUT okay, i can handle that despite those shit i wrote before.

i insist i could.

and fuck, i just put my blog on air in facebook again.

i would appreciate if my sister will not notice it or leave it alone.

although i dont really give much damn about anyone, its gonna feel weird if my blood-related sister/s read it.

YOU KNOW RIGHT.

yes, that was it.

cheryl's forcing me to go public with twitter.

since i decline to follow or let her follow me, i should go public.

HAHAHAH

the bloody bots are flooding the tagboard every now and then, screw em.

ill remove the tagboard soon!

now, im going town.

say nothing

come, kill now.

TSK, F MYSELF.

damn it, is she sick?

ven told me she's sick, although i have no idea what kind of sick she meant.

i hope not the real falling sick.

crap,

kill me.

I'll nap till 3am.
Night.
Have a great evening

i dont exist today

you know,

i dont know.

im so tempted to just, bloody view her every shit.

BUT, I CANT.

you know what,

just forget that i actually exist on 25 January 2011.

i didnt wrote all these shit,

neither did i miss anybody in particular.

aw f.

i got night duty later on, wont be home wont be online.

life's good,

except for the missing part.

good night, i shall nap during office hours.

do i look like i am joking?

Okay I've always told myself to be true.

I miss Lynn.
Like a fucking much,
Like endless.
And I can't convinced myself that I'm not.
Now having said that,
I know you, or anyone else will think I'm a loser,
that I can't move on.

Crap, even that.
I still gonna fucking say it again and let my ego eat it up,
I fucking miss Lynn.
writing the exact name was so forbidden,
but I couldn't care less.

Now, take it hard.
Ego

I must be a bad liar,
Cause' I can't even lie to you about this.

Oh man,
I'm running out of mojos to write anything.
This suck.
Come inspirations,
Come.

too young,

too young.

the world is too huge,

get it.

okay wheelock time.

hey answer my prayer/s now.

i quote myself

"How bout, out of so many things that could affect me,
out of the numerous girls, out of those I fancy.
Out of them, there's You who stands out."

I wrote you hundred letters I will never send

i dont care

some shit,
you will just smile uncannily.

I was praying for faulty harddisk to work,
and it did.
was finding warcraft files for chloe.
bah, curiosity kills the cat.
I wanted to find out how shitty I looked years back,
so in the midst of it,
I saw the picture of the neoprint.

Yeah, I felt like shit.
Those smiles she had, were amazing.
something any guy will die for.
It was deadly, even now.

screw it now,
I want to know her again.
Idc whether I'm gonna get a reply I wanted
Idc whether shes attached again
Idc if I sound immature
Idc if I realized that this will be a stupid post
Idc if I have to get another 20 gifts
Idc if I get any shit for my birthday

Tell me I just sleep-typed.
Well,
I don't care.

I am afraid of marriage.
very much.
It all comes down to commitment.
Just watched two adultery movies earlier on, none of em had good endings.
F.
Engulfed by lust and temptations.
I got to be thinking too much.

I'm beginning to feel responsible, due to office work.
well not much of a choice right.

HAHAHA F what I wrote at the start.
Damn retarded.
Okay imu. Rest time over!

okay,

im motivated.

i have no idea why or for what either, so just watch.

and,

happy birthday elis.

you're looking, right?

this bloody misery song kept repeating in my head, f.

i rejected movie dates with the homies,

staying at home tonight!

im gonna watch all the movies i downloaded,

eat chips and chill the shit out.

devil was horrifying, i got pussy out.

now there's the kick,

Black Swan is the shit. damn thrilling and gross too,

damn lapsap too! :D

love natalie portman ttm.

last night made me realized that, f i might be a lil too old for the dance floor now.

time to forsake phuture and head to Zouk instead, amen.

you know what,

i should order Elle monthly.

i will.

norm

why wouldn't you answer me,

the silent is slowly killing me!

thank you.

i just went to follow that korean girl on twitter.

was it an insane move?

you know, i was showing one of my colleague that youtube vid.

he went, "wow, she got such a sweet voice!"

then after seeing the vid for around 30s, he went "omg alvin, shut it down now. cannot tahan, later fall in love!"

HAHAHA

YES, I THINK IM REALLY GOING ZOUK TODAY.

F THIS WEDNESDAY.

IM GOING TONIGHT.

Why am I not in Zouk?
Instead I'm heading to Maska for some drinks to catch up with homies.
FML.

today I just saw on twitter's straits times,
bout brisbane massive floods.
Bbm'ed elis straight away, luckily she's alright.
She just next to the area beside the flood.
Nice.

Okay ttyl.

I failed to notice your sensitivity was more than how you expressed yourself towards me.

God damn it.
I'm still addicted to the song! :]

knock

i am emotionally filled tonight,

im good to be creative,

im good to make you fall for me.

:]

maybe i should use emoticons more.

i used to be very into that, now im a lil too cool.

not that kind of cool, the cold type.

how the f, wait that was years back.

hey, i might be back to that soooooo

who knows? :)

all's good tonight

okay im gonna share this beautiful shit with you peeps,

her voice is as sweet as her face.

beautiful

her round face shape reminds me of eugenia thou!

beautiful song for the night i guess.

enjoy!

anyhow, nic was asking if she should be friends with jolene earlier on.

i sorta encouraged her since i told her ive been trying to convince her all these years,

she finally matured!

well, all good. hopefully the 3 girls will be back to normal soon, like good o' days.

and that dumbf is REALLY damn exaggerating in her replies,

almost making me laughoutloud all the time.

goodnight ladies.

okay, ask me

"How're you too?"

i'll reply you in my next entry.

I was deeply paranoid.

Okay I've been asking,
What if, I mean WHAT IF, a girl says you're a bad kisser but yet ends it with "but I like the way you do that."
Will you feel Good or Terrible?
F, maybe the last line was just to make one feel better after mistaking saying the wrong stuff!
Great, she's just teasing me.

FFF
And what the hell happened to commitment!

Anyhow,
I've been sleeping early, way too early.
Like 10pm!?
But still laze on the bed in the morning thou.
Hell, I missed the chance to play solitaire with elis on msn.

Okay so,
How're you?

im feeling cold for the past few days,

is it that im sick or just the weather?

well, f this flu im having now.

work's been mundane,

except for some really jiao customers.

after 4-5months, finally clicking well with the colleagues

but hell, office politics really really suck big time.

havent been watching dramas, omg!

secret garden, i missed like 5-6 ep?! F

been youtubing music videos, old school music vids.

sleepy.

yawning.

lethargic.

this is just a period where every shit sinks in,
get over it soon.
F.
Breath in

i just ruined myself.

im staying awake till dawn.

too angsty to fall asleep.

shut down msn, shut down everything.

f it.

stfu

what is this shit im feeling now,

or for the past 30mins?

im pissed off yet my heart is feeling heavy,

im upset.

i believe this is stupid, but i dislike my family today.

the shit they made me go through,

truly deserve my middle finger right in their faces.

motherfuck,

spoil the night.

I lied.

You're bloody awesome.

let it out

I realized I can't live up to her expectations,
yet I've been telling myself never to give up.
I think I'm insane in a way or another.
Crap, I just don't like the idea of giving up.
I'm afraid,
Giving up was not a choice anymore.
F, I shouldn't be so "onz"

Life would be easier that way,
aint it?

I thought I saw her.
F, dream on.

kick start

Oh hi!
How's 2011 for you?
mine's quite exciting and extremely budget. HAHAHA.
Can't believe I went KL > Genting with just less than 60-70sgd, along with marc pt boon mk and jason. We had fun teasing the chicks in KL, like we always do.
Slept overnight in our rented car parked at genting, freezing cold shit.
I'm so gonna go zouk KL, the chinese there are HOT.
Its just somewhat different in sg.
We speed on the roads, experienced the car ski-ing on rainy weather.
Think we did too many senseless and idiotic stuff to even remember them!

Everything went smoothly till mk got held while passing the custom, tio fine 140bucks for undeclared cig pack.

Hope everyone had a great one.

Know this year, maybe I should change a lil.
Be more friendly.
Less harsh to girls.
Oh girls.
Wait, I thought I'm super friendly already!? I talk a lot one leh.
F.
Okay, I should fall in love again.
Like big time.
instead of being neither here nor there all the time even though I like it.
HAHAHA.
Have never once told myself to get a girl,
sound so dumb.
Its supposed to come when you least expects it!